This post provides an update on this season of forgiveness opportunities in my life.
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It’s been a while since I’ve posted because I’ve been busy with life – selling our house in Minneapolis, preparing to move, house-hunting, moving, and finally settling into a new home in Woodbury, MN. I never would have imagined doing any of this during a global pandemic, let alone in a regular year, but the conditions that made it the right time to move all came together in June.
My life was so utterly turned upside-down that I had to refer back to my website’s Events page to remember that in March I switched to offering Zoom spiritual circles for women. It was a fun challenge to try to make engaging content and create connections among participants even though we were meeting from our separate homes.
Forgiveness opportunities for everyone
We all went inward in April when the social distancing mandates went into effect, and May continued much the same. I’m grateful that the nurses at Pediatric Home Service continued to provide my daughter’s home immunoglobulin infusions throughout this time of quarantine.
Also in May, I saw a one-on-one spiritual healing client over Google Meet that catalyzed starting work on a second book. It started out as cleaning up the MyWomb project started over a decade ago, and morphed into a Sacred Self-Healing Workbook that will serve as the experiential companion piece to my first book. More on that later.
Healing as a forgiveness opportunity
Then in June, we saw our LymeStop practitioner in Onalaska, WI who immediately picked up on a mold issue that had been eluding us for years. He recommended that we get rid of our belongings, move, and start over to get away from the toxic mold that was hindering my daughter (and me) from healing from Lyme Disease and other co-infections. Though we had done mold remediation in our house several times, we hadn’t been able to get to the root of the problem. Whenever we were tested we showed mold toxicity and mold illness, and though we had mold experts search our home they couldn’t find the cause. Hearing this news gave us the kick in the pants to get over our resistance to moving and do it.
July was spent readying our house to sell, getting rid of our belongings, and looking for a mold-free home. But almost every house we entered gave me brain fog and nausea because they too were water damaged. It was frustrating because we wanted to stay in the SW Minneapolis vicinity but nothing was suitable. We expanded our search to neighboring suburbs, then outer-ring suburbs, and finally landed on a new construction home in Woodbury amid cornfields. Never in my wildest dreams could I have predicted this trajectory. But once we closed, and moved in, it was home.
Changes with Covid-19
In July before we moved my landlord at Well Connected Twin Cities reached out and said they were closing their doors. So, I gave back my key, and put that part of my spiritual healing practice on hold. Now that things are settling into a predictable rhythm I’m beginning to update my website, LinkedIn page, and get on other networking sites like Alignable. I’m returning to a deeper meditation practice than was possible while we were in the throes of moving and tuning in to what my next endeavor will look like. I’m excited to pick up where I left off on the Sacred Self-Healing Workbook, which will include more meditation exercises, movement practices, and creative ways to express and explore your connection with Spirit.
A new home
My new living situation is pretty different from the 1937 Tudor in the Kenny neighborhood where we lived for the last 20 years. The old house had many “charming” elements (er, idiosyncrasies), and the neighborhood was a mishmash of many architectural styles, ethnicities, and textures. The new house is, well, brand new. We have yet to discover its quirks, and from the outside, all of the homes in the neighborhood look very similar. We’re living in a new development where all of the homes are less than three years old, and the trees haven’t had a chance to grow big enough to give shade yet. Our driveway is neatly lined up directly opposite our neighbors across the street. That provided an unforeseen forgiveness opportunity last week when my neighbor and I both got in our cars simultaneously and pulled out into the street in synch so that our bumpers met in the middle of the road. Ouch!
Oops!
After I heard the impact I jumped out of the car and found myself face-to-face with a lovely neighbor I hardly knew, as we inspected our cars and both of us kept repeating over and over, “I had no idea your car was there!” It was distressing, but also comical, and luckily neither of our nearly identical Subarus had sustained any damage more than a paint smudge on the bumper.
But even though the “accident” was over, and there wasn’t a need to call insurance, I found myself reliving the event in my mind. And at the conclusion of each re-telling in my mind, I found myself returning to feelings of shame and guilt. Even though I knew I was not bad, I hadn’t done anything wrong, and everything was alright, I continued to suffer the belief that I was guilty.
This went on for about six hours, while I periodically practiced forgiveness for the event and my feelings, while I continued to experience waves of shame. Finally, after dinner, I focused on the root of the feelings of guilt and shame, and I directed my loving gaze at my hurting. I saw the part of me that, for whatever reason, felt I was bad and believed that by bumping bumpers with my neighbor I deserved to suffer. In my mind’s eye, I bathed that part of me with loving light, feeling myself being filled up with love, sensing my Divine helpers holding me in their arms, and hearing them telling me that I was meant to know that I was pure love and light. This world, they reminded me, this reality, where cars occasionally bump into each other, is not the true reality where I am at home with God in Heaven. After this love bath, I resumed my evening free of the recurring surges of guilt and shame, and I resolved to write about it later.
Forgiveness recap
So, here I am, in a different city, having moved houses after twenty years. The resources required to plan and execute the move took all of my available energy and creativity, and I didn’t have anything left for growing or even maintaining my spiritual healing practice. According to Maslow’s theory about the hierarchy of needs, one has to attend to the basic needs for survival (food, shelter) before there is room in your psyche for more ethereal pursuits.
So when I finally had a secure bed to sleep in, and food in the pantry, it was a great joy to feel a re-kindling of my spiritual life in the last week. My creativity opened up for writing again, and I’m thinking about my spiritual healing practice while I write this long-overdue blog post. And a lovely result of our move is that when we visited our LymeStop practitioner again last week we showed no evidence of active mold. Hurrah!
The up-side
I’m excited to see how the next phase of my spiritual healing practice plays out. There were many many forgiveness opportunities that were part of letting go of our old house and belongings, moving, and realizing that we deserved to be living free of mold, and I hope to share more about them later. And certainly, with our current political climate and state of the world, there are innumerable forgiveness opportunities facing us each day.
I wish for you a glorious day of knowing that you are loved, noticing the sun on your shoulders, enjoying the change of seasons, and finding peace within the chaos of our time. And I leave you with some luminous words shared by my friend Jeannie Ouellette by Randall Brown:
“The world – shattered and lying in shards – has grown tired of its pieces being glued together to create the illusion of something complete. Instead, the world hopes someone will pick up a single fragment and create out of it something whole, something that fills that compressed space with the entirety of all that there is.”
Randall Brown, author of the award-winning flash collection Mad to Live and editor of Matter Press
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Intention is the driving force behind any energy healing modality, from Reiki to sound healing to prayer.
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